I've noticed lately that a lot of things seem better than they actually are. One of these things that made me realize is my family. Things have just been happening recently that I had no idea were going on. First of all, my older brother, Dustin. Dustin is 21, and has had the same girlfriend for 5-6 years. Little did I know, they had been having problems for a long time now. And they just broke up.
Then, one of my uncles seems to have a perfect life. Cute little house in a subdivision, a pretty wife, and 3 beautiful little girls(ages 9,5,and 5 months). He has a decent paying job, and he just seems happy. They look so normal on the outside. But they are far from it. Unless normal is to be dysfunctional. Something happened yesterday, and I'm not supposed to say anything. But it's happened in my family before, with my parents. It has a little to do with drinking. All situations I've mentioned actually are related to alcohol in some way. It started as an argument, and I'm not sure what else happened, but my cousin, the oldest, called my Nana last night crying.((Which is ironic, because I did the same thing when my parents would fight when I was little)) I don't know what all happened, but I know how she must feel I felt the same way many times. I just want to go pick her and her sisters up and take them shopping with me. That was always the best therapy for me. And then we can rent little girly movies and watch them. I would love to do that. But, I don't get my liscence for 2 months. So, I can't do that for a while. I went through the same thing. My parents fought all the time, and sometimes it got worse. All because my dad used to drink. It's pretty normal now, but I still remember that feeling. I'd call my Nana everytime they'd have a fight, and she'd come get me. My Nana didn't go get Kaylee(mycousin). That's because her mom found out she was on the phone, and told my Nana not to. I hope everything's okay with them. They seemed so normal. It feels like it isn't real. Like I'm just imagining it. Maybe the new normal is dyfunctional.
It's been a long day. It seemed to last for forever. Exams are coming up. Oh Joy! Exams! I'm not worried. I just want them to be over with. It cannot be over soon enough. My classes for next semester are: A Block- Spanish 2 B Block-Int. Science 2(Biology) C Block-Studyhall L Block-Algebra 2 D Block-Global American Studies I'm really glad I have a studyhall. I'd die without it!
ALL THE FAVORITE QUESTIONS 1. color-pink 2. Food-chicken nuggets 3. sport-shopping! just kidding, uhh....soccer 4. kind of vehicle- jetta 5. Smell-i think cappuccino...toffee flavored & peppermint 6. Brand of shoes-i might have to say steve madden. or... 7. Movie-legally blonde,breakfast club, butterfly effect,garden state 8. book-Speak,by Laurie Halse Anderson, and Walk Two Moons,Sharon Creech 9. animal-zebra 10. band/singer-right now, ashlee simpson, but that changes often 11. song-hmm....god must have spent a little more time on you-nsync 12. music video-i don't know. 13. quotes- i don't know 14. Gum-polar ics 15. Nail polish color-bright pink 16. school subject-math 17.Teacher- Mr. Bartlett 18. Number-13,29 19. lip gloss flavor-this fat kiss stuff by toofaced 20. midnight snack-low carb mini reeses cups 21. holiday-Valentine's Day 22. month-March 23. year that you were alive-2004 24. season-fall 25. shampoo-herbal essences 26. candy bar-reeses cups 27. candy-i dunno? 28. pop-diet pepsi 29. tv show- that 70's show, project runway 30. hobby-shopping 31. cartoon character-wishbear-carebe ars 32. clothing brand- american eagle,abercrombie 33. basketball team-i hate basketball ; 34. football team-osu 35. athlete-don't have one 36. flower-lilacs 37. tree-dogwood 38. kind of coumputer-not dell 39. make out spot-my room 40. color to write in-pink 41. body spray-clinique happy 41. fruit-banana&pineappl e 42. vegetable-celery 43. Icecream-mint choc. chip, peppermint 45. snapple- i don't like snapple. i like jones. bubble gum kind. 46. Magazine-hmm....instyle.cosmogirl.ellegirl<--cool-stuff- to-cut-out. 47. word-pickle 48. radio station-97.9 49. color of sports bra, or boxers, panties- pink with polka dots.from gap. 50. Cd that you own-ashlee simpson, goo goo dolls? 51. slimfast flavor-never hadit. but if i had to choose milkshake...peanutbutterbanana 52. board game-i like twister and madgab. not boardgames, but ohwell. 53. juice-orange pineapple banana
...was boring... Not much else to say other than I <333 my David, and the Lindsay Lohan cd he got me... Well, most of it... I <3 this song... It's called Symptoms of You....
There's a good kind of pain And insane kinda sane When I'm around you There's a chill in the heat Feel the sky at my feet Cuz I adore you I cant ignore you I'm not ill I don't need to Take a pill To fix what you do Cure can come through Cuz baby all I do is suffer from The symptoms of you There's a left kinda right There's a blind kinda sight Looking at you There is no light in the moon and its winter in June When I'm without you And it trips me off my feet I think I'm falling in too deep Do you feel it too
I Really Like The Movie Garden State.... I Love How It's So Creative, But It Doesn't Make You Think Too Much... Some of the scenes are just...wonderful... They are: 1. When his shirt matched the wallpaper 2.When all the sinks turn on as he walks past 3.When everyone jumps into the pool... Those are just a few that I can think of... It was a WONDERFUL MOVIE... David said the girl in it was like me...hah.
Actually, this time I have an orthodontist appointment. One of my last, actually. Well, with braces on...
Yesterday, we looked at houses, because ours might sell. It was pretty boring. David came, and that made it a little better. Afterwards, my parents let us go shopping for a half hour! I wanted more time, but it was enough time to look around at Hollister and AE, then go back to AE, buy matching hoodies, and get David a Peppermint Mocha Frappaccino...I wanted one, but even the Tall Light ones had 16 carbs, so I didn't get one. I found the bikini I want, and some jeans I want. They are my motivation to keep doing this diet. The bikini:
Isn't that cute?? Anywhoo, since last week, I've lost 6.5 pounds in total! I imagine I'll meet my goal for weightloss before the end of February! Yay! Anywhoo, I have to go.... We might visit school in the area we might have to go to if we move, So i MUST look cute! Gotta Go!
I didn't go to school today! It wasn't cancelled, but I didn't go... I just didn't feel like it... I haven't been able to sleep recently... I've been staying up until 2 AM.. And I try to go to sleep, but I can't. I think it's because I have been exercising right before I go to sleep, at around...8:30-ish. Anywhoo, I just needed to catch up on sleep.
OMG....I Lost 5 Pounds So Far! In 4 days!I'm OH SO EXCITED!
I just relaxed today... I watched: That 70's Show Loove this show. Jackie is my favorite...Probably because she's the most like me...That's kind of sad... Project Runway (much <<333) I love Project Runway, mostly because I want to be a fashion designer!...Go Figure! Who I like: Robert Alexandra Nora Kara Saun (i like them all the same, but I think I like Kara's designs the best!) Who I don't: Wendy I mean, she's soo...irritable..and coniving, and deceiving! The rest...I really have a so-so opinion of... Okay, enough about TV!!
I checked out my ebay a lot! I sold two of my dresses... A pink prom dress and a purple homecoming dress! A total of $80! I think I have to put it towards my driver's ed.. Yay, I get to drive soon! My 16th B-day is during SPRINK BREAK! HOW FREAKIN AWESOME IS THAT?? I am hoping I meet my weight loss goal by then... Because I am So Going BIKINI SHOPPING! If I lose as much as I wanted to by then!
Anywhoo, I gotta go do my excersize videos, since it's been too cold to go run at the State Park! So anywhoo, I might be on tomorrow, but probably not. David's coming over, and we're renting: Garden State Little Black Book & The Anchorman!
It is January 5th, 2005, and I am happy. I am tired, but I am happy.
I haven't ate any carbs in three days, and I lost almost 2 pounds. *insert my excitement here* Billijo is dieting with me. It's funner to diet with someone else, even though she doesn't need to. She looks so cute. She is the funnest best friend I ever had! It seems so horrible, but I am so glad this one person is out of my life...We have too much fun making fun of her now! I will tell more later. When I'm not so tired.
Billijo and I are coloring our hair. She's going light blonde with red. I'm going dark blonde with red. We're both getting our hair trimmed too. Soon.
I am praying that I don't have school tomorrow. I really don't want to go. Really.
I must get to sleep just in case I do have to go to school. I'm sure I'll be posting tomorrow.
